In the crimes of my life on drugs, there are many things I did that I am not proud of. Slowly,I am learning more about how to accept these are character defects of who I was, not who I am or who I will be.
These are the lessons I will carry forward, not as things to feel shame for, but things that I regret doing, and this regret will be used as a tool to help me never do those things again.
Knowing that I once was untrustworthy, but am slowly building back my trust; knowing that I once was devious, and calculated, but am now fiercely open and honest and know that even if no one else knows, I will, so that I will not repeat those acts that broke people’s trust, faith and friendship is part of the way I will make indirect amends to people, direct amends to myself, and build a better relationship with God.
Easy does it. One day at a time.
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