|A refraction of the afternoon sun. Serendipity and beautiful epiphany.|
I have been super-busy all day, getting things ready so I can go on leave for 10 days. So much so, I didn’t even realise it was my 200th clean day.
200 days without drugs or alcohol.
200 days into rebuilding my new life.
200 days where I have discovered that I am surrounded by the most amazing people, who make this most amazing journey even MORE so!
I am not done! Watch this space – because the most beautiful epiphany I had was that my posts are becoming more and more positive – there are much wider gaps between the posts where I feel darkness and despair. These are the good days. These are the days of living, and the days of my life.
Sometimes I get sickened by how ‘in the moment’ these posts are, and how deep and emo they are. Pathetic, I know it.
More pragmatism should be spoken about, as I wind my way up the clean living calendar.
So I am setting off to see the gents of Pretoria Boys High School, for my 20th School Reunion, something I never thought I’d live to see because I was going to go out in a blaze of inglorious chemicals and dribbly vomit. Now, of course, that’s all changed. I feel ALIVE and HUMAN and POWERFUL and not for a damn am I giving up any of this yet!
These are the good days.
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