“Virtue, the highest good, is based on knowledge; the wise live in harmony with the divine Reason, Fate and Providence that governs nature, and are indifferent to the vicissitudes of fortune and to pleasure and pain.”
Yeah, well. Wish I could be indifferent to the hell of the middle-of-the-month blues. Does this mean I can only be happy, vibrant, positive, when I have money? I am that shallow? This worries me; I know it’s not true, yet, when I isolate and become morose essentially because money is tight and I am housebound as a result, my mood worsens. Can I find NOTHING positive to do, to think about, nothing constructive to busy myself with?
It reminds me of Cris, when we used to live together, and he would just sleep away the times when we had no money or drugs, choosing not to engage with life until the next fix, financially or chemically – have I adopted this trait, even in my new, clean life?
There must be more to life than the constant pursuit of money; of paying bills? Surely?
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