I want to tell you how I felt when you sent that message. But I won’t.

I want to tell you about the real emotion I had. But I won’t.

I want to tell you never to contact me again. But I won’t.

I want to block you from ever being able to get in contact with me. But I won’t.

I want to write a thousand words about the damage and the hurt and the codependency. But I won’t.

You’re not welcome here, anymore. But I won’t shut the door, because you’re not important enough for me to buy into that kind of drama ever again.

This – us – whatever it was (more than a friendship, too little for a relationship) – was a mess. 

I am not closing the door on you, but my therapy is. It’s slowly prying loose that death grip you held on my heart and my wallet. It’s disarming you, reducing you from the charming monster I used to love, to a simple man, broken by his own demons. Nothing more. Nothing less.

I’ve already written too much. You don’t have a front seat in my life, anymore. 

I’m moving on. I’m setting you free, to do whatever you want to do. Go. So I can be free of you.

© Dave Luis 2015. All Rights Reserved. 

Image by Alex Wigan at Unsplash

Advertisements

18 thoughts on “Setting You Free.

      1. Sadly you can’t but take comfort in knowing that nothing lasts forever and those experiences that shapes you into who you’re meant to be. You’re awesome already and after all this is over you’ll be even more so. I’m watching this space…

      2. Had some good revelations about my progress, process and own strength today. I’m light years ahead of where I was just 4 months ago.

  1. Freedom! Dave, it’s within your reach. The process yours to own.

    In this life we all have something, an event, a person, holding us hostage; sometimes that event, that person, is ourselves.

    Healing also comes through forgiveness of self and others.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s