It’s everybody’s favourite catch phrase from Pitch Perfect, but some days, ‘make good choices’ is a lifeline.

Today was one of those days. Today was a day where my temper threatened to overwhelm and consume me.

So I made a good choice.

I cleared out of the maelstrom. I walked away. Seething, boiling and on the brink of exploding.

But walking away only delayed what I knew would come. That flood of confusion at all this…emotion. I detest it. Ironic, no? I have a strong emotion about strong emotions.

Have you seen Equilibrium? The 2002 film, in which Christian Bale lives in a world where emotion is outlawed. Emotion is kept out of the human population with a daily dose of strong medication. A lot like my old life: have a feeling, apply cocaine. Feeling gone.

So today I knew that that default reaction would rise up in me again as the rush of anger drowned all my other senses. And it did, in a big way.

So I made a good choice. Again.

I acknowledged the monster, and disarmed it. I faced it down by admitting it was there, and KNOWING why it was there, and knowing HOW I was going to get through it. Just one second at a time.

Then a minute.

Followed by an hour. And another. And another…

At the end of three hours, I was clear. Calm. And had produced a load of work for tomorrow. Which should take the edge off tomorrow, a little.

Today marks 39 months’ clean and mostly serene living.

© Dave Luis 2015. All Rights Reserved.

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4 thoughts on “Make Good Choices.

  1. I get so angry. So angry so easily. It’s all consuming. Read this and it made me realise I can control it. I really can. Thank you

  2. Thank you for the post! It’s always good to have a plan for removing oneself from what triggers us. I have also learned to avoid media content that upsets me by turning off the TV! I once started every morning by turning on the news, only to begin my day in frustration. Now, that quiet time has made it possible to prepare to meet all the experiences of the day without being pulled off center. in lak’ech, Debra

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