Today marks four years since I last touched drugs or alcohol.
I wish that I was writing a piece that celebrated my victory and affirmed that I had all the answers to beating addiction, but I am not.
Truth is, I wrote a piece 2 years ago today saying the battle was far from won, and today as I write nothing has changed.
In fact not only has nothing changed, nothing has changed since April 16, 2014.
I am confined to a wheelchair because I am so overweight and unfit that a small accident that would have been a minor inconvenience in a healthier, stronger person, has rendered me useless and unable to do anything.
Yes, I may never touch drugs again (that battle has been won) but my focus on self-care and planning for the future is as undeveloped and for the most part absent as it was at the height of my addiction.
There is no point writing a searing and inspirational post of how I beat drugs, when there is so much I am not getting right. There is nothing to be gained from opening up in a vulnerable piece about how I need help. No value in a life listicle, defining achievements and work yet to be done.
In short, these words are meaningless without action to change my situation.
So yes, today I celebrate four years of drug-free living, and I acknowledge that milestone, and the hard work it took to achieve. I acknowledge the love and support of everyone who helped me to get to this point. I respect the wishes of those who had to walk away.
I have so much still left to do.
Happy birthday, me!
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